The irony my mother who has attempted suicide and been suicidal throughout life has lived far beyond 5 of her 6 children. My nephew said the Lord don't want her and the devil is afraid she will take over. Brings to light what is fair or is justice of fairness even a part of life. 91 years old she attempted to murder my father more times than I care to count and now she sits in the seat of manipulation. If you don't do this or you don't do that , If I can't live with you I will kill myself. I have called the police a few times to do good will check ups . But when is it "crying wolf" and when will she attempt it once more. I find it completely frustrating.
It is difficult to be responsible for a woman who is not only violent at times, manipulative at others but in need of some kind help obviously. I felt like I put the past to rest but somehow she has managed to stir up the worst of memories and my distrust for her.
I stood behind when she pulled a shot gun out on my father aimed and fired. Have been there when she threatened with a axe. I am sure he must have a gene connection to Lizzi Borden.
I have come to the realization that nothing is more valuable than peace of mind. I think am I wrong this time to calling her bluff? Should I allow her to continue to spew hatred ? Manipulation?, threats? anger ?
I was completely upset this morning. It is nothing a person wants to hear at 7 am as they are opening their eyes. I have no idea what her mental health issue is, partially manic depressive , narcist surely some kind of personality disorder. I still mourn the loss of my eldest sister. The only person left who understood, who experienced and who knew the complete background of the skeletons in the closet.
Those who think I should do more, have truly no understanding of what we endured and what I still endure.
